second-song-a-phobia

I think I'm a bit morbid. I assume the worst in situations at times. So i'm driving along, in my own world and I hear "Get Back" the Aerosmith version and i'm zoned out. Next thing you know they start playing "Dream On"... wait, why another Aerosmith song? What happened, did they die? Did they crash into the mountains and burn to a crisp somewhere? I think this way, everytime. I hate listening to the 5 o'clock Rock Blocks on KISS cause I automatically think the worst, even though I know that they are going to play more than 1 song from the same artist. It just freaks me out. I'll call this, double-song-a-phobia, second-song-a-phobia. Wait, I don't fear the two songs, I think I fear the outcome of two songs. I fear the reason why they play the two songs.

I remember being in the 8th grade and on the way home I kept hearing Nirvana being played on the radio. Not really listening to anything that the DJ had to say I spaced out just listening to every song singing along in my head. I got home and my friend Leslee called me and I could hear in her voice that something was wrong. Then she said, "Did you hear what happened?" I reply kinda in a little girl gossip mode, "No, what?" She answered almost feeding into the silly middle school drama that we were so ingrossed in, "Nirvana died!" I stopped. My first reaction was shock of course, the whole band was dead? (We obviously didn't have the whole story and learned shortly after that it was just Corbain who's life had ended). I imagined the entire band burning in a fiery plane crash along the Rocky Mountains. Wild imagination I suppose, so I check where any 13 year old would get music news, MTV. Sure enough Kurt Loder informs us of Cobains suicide. (But if you ever watch the Documentary Kurt and Courtney, you may think his suicide was anything but that).

Anywho, fast forward to the next year. My mom was driving me home again and I noticed that Selena is blowing up on the airwaves. I got this weird feeling in my stomach (no not gas) and listened to everything the DJ had to say. Sure enough, she was shot and died later in the hospital, hence the heavy airplay.

So no wonder why I get a little weirded out now by radio. Not that I was a huge Selena fan, Nirvana yes, and their deaths didn't have a major impact on my life or anything. I was still the same person that I was the next day. Tragic yes. But I guess it was the way I found out. Listening to their music, feeling at ease then boom. THIS JUST IN... THEY'RE DEAD. I just recently started listening to radio again and I still cringe everytime the dreaded second song comes on. And it's usualy the classic rock bands that get the double play songs, and I guess in my head since they are "classic" it makes me think even more that they croaked somewhere. I need to start listening to books on CD. Any recommendations?